Thursday, September 3, 2026

Is this an obituary column?

 It is beginning to feel like it...

First, Dolly and Tim, can you imagine their duet?\ Then. Gloria...unfortunately she did not make it to one hundred as desired but her books and magazine survive as does the famous declaration, 



"The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.

Tuesday, August 25, 2026

Rest in Peace Dolly...

 I found myself shocked at Dolly Parton's passing, announced earlier today. I've loved her voice and music since girlhood and respected her philanthropy. Part of the shock included learning Parton had been a cancer patient. 




Sunday, August 23, 2026

Pondering...


 In memory of Joanne and all of the loving, brave fighters...

Goodnight...

Saturday, August 22, 2026

Friday, August 21, 2026

Mercy and I...

 Have lost our favorite pet sitter to the demands of a degree in microbiology and a busy family life. I have another from the cat hospital coming next month and have high hopes based on remarks from Mercy's vet. I miss L but hope she is happy and successful regarding her future plans. This is going to be yet another adjustment for a cat that does not like strangers, hides and is suspicious and anxious about any change.

As for me, I am coping and dreaming of salad and fresh veg and fruit amid increasing recalls and rising cases of cyclospora. 

Happy Friday...

Thursday, August 20, 2026

A post from 2011

 

Dream girl: Moments In An Afternoon

The whoosh of rubber against the hospital floor was uncharacteristically the only sound in the corridor as the woman propelled forward, her gloved hands resting lightly over battered rims, slowing her descent down the deserted hallway. Hitting the carpeted surface of the lobby entrance provided an automatic break. She stopped just long to roll neck and shoulders, adjusting her grip for the more powerful pushes needed to get to the waiting bank of lifts.

Rumbling, and a series of clicks announced a lifts' arrival, its opening releasing a woman with an infant on her hip, another with a gangly teen following behind and a man of indeterminate age, clutching two large envelopes in one hand and the top of a cane in the other. No-one said anything as the woman rolled into the newly-emptied gaping maw beyond the lift doors, turning herself around to face the row of buttons within and pressing the one which would get her quickly to the floor below.

Shooting through the hospital's automatic doors, the woman felt a slight rush of air as the mid afternoon heat hit her face. Brilliant blue sky and a slight breeze greeted her exit, just before her eyes fell upon the image of a bird. Woven wool, black strands accented its wings and beak, causing the woman to recall similar images from her Central American childhood. Looking up, she caught the profile of a young girl. Lithe and long limbed, dark hair held in a pony tail, the girl turned, and smiling, said, "My grandmother got this for me on one of her trips."

A slight conversation ensued before the girl, perhaps twelve or thirteen, introduced herself and proper greetings were exchanged.

Regarding this girl silently for a moment, the woman flashed back to a memory of herself as a preteen. All legs and arms and awkward reserve, she too had been tentatively curious about many of the adults she encountered. It did not startle her when this girl ventured beyond polite bounds and asked why she used a wheelchair. Carefully choosing her words and abbreviating the answer, the woman stopped, surprised by an enthusiastic high five against her hand. This was followed by a hasty, "goodbye, Miss," as the girl spotted her mother, and disappeared inside their car

Wednesday, August 19, 2026

Remembering...



Today

The solitary practice of making tea by the cup…
A prelude to our late morning phone calls
Started when your girls were in diapers and down for naps
You always began with a joke or a funny story
Our natter quickly turning to the world beyond our doors or
Some book neither of us could put down
Your treks into the desert, telescope in hand
Looking for the perfect night’s sky, filled notebooks
Now in a box, closeted in a city apartment, far from the landscape you adored

I sip my tea alone, the only sound

Your voice in my head...


This commemorates the passing of my friend Pauline  ten years ago. Knowing someone from college to  death is a rare privilege, and I think of her and the family that included me often.

Many thanks for the birthday salutations and my apologies for spotty blogging.

Tuesday, August 4, 2026

Another Birthday...

 

A favorite post from, 2009



Do you remember where you were in August 1973???

I was in Paris...My parents decided to show me all of the well-known hallmarks of the city one day, then the Louvre the day after. This was followed by a trip to Versailles and its Palace.

The whirlwind of these events remains in memory to this day. I was a gawky thirteen-year-old who spent much of my time craning my neck at paintings, in awe of towers, arches, speeding cars and growing crowds. While the Hall of Mirrors fascinated, it also repelled, as I could not imagine myself beyond what I thought of as the "ugly duckling phase" or walking in such a place routinely.

The day of my fourteenth birthday found Paris clear, bright and beckoning. I did not learn until then that London awaited yet another trio of tourists. Travel to England was so uneventful that I dozed until our arrival at the flat we stayed in that week.

The flat was near a park, and across the street, a Wimpy's, England's answer to the now ubiquitous McDoos. Never a fan of fast food, I nonetheless made Wimpy's acquaintance when my parents announced one evening that they had plans and I was to remain in with the telly. My dad said my dinner was in a bag in the kitchen, piping hot. I have no idea whether the Wimpy's creations of today bear any resemblance to those, but I do remember them as fresh and better than any burger I had thereafter. My choice to become a vegetarian in adulthood is no reflection upon Wimpy's.

It wasn't long until telly and burgers were supplanted for all time by a trip to the Piccadilly Theatre, featuring a production of Gypsy, with Angela Lansbury. It was my first opportunity to view professional actors on stage and I remained transfixed the entire time.

Sadly, the cherished playbill from that occasion, along with other mementos, have been lost. You can find out more about the theatre here: http://www.london-theatreland.co.uk/theatres/piccadilly-theatre/history.php.

The postcard you may have seen during a previous post. While this entry is of no historic importance to anyone but me, I wish every kid could have the chance to experience the London stage and the sights of Paris.

Have a happy day...

Nothing abnormal and 67 today...

 Hoping all of you have a great day. Though it is rainy and humid here, I plan to enjoy some cards and treats and a visit from a friend later this morning. My recent exam revealed nothing abnormal...An excellent gift, I think.



Thursday, July 23, 2026

No routine here...yet

 I am struggling to once again establish a consistent daily routine. Since the surgery that has gone completely and I think having some semblance of structure beyond basic chores once I manage to arise might be helpful. The girl is pooping slightly more often, so there is that. The bills are paid and the place is tidied and I've managed to eat more than one meal, arrange a possible ride to my surveillance appointment on the 31rst. My vote by mail ballot is done and I baked an organic sour dough not from scratch and gave it to a friend because she has done so much for me and is at present taking care of her husband. I am so tired I can barely sit up.

Time for bed...Have a good night.


Saturday, July 18, 2026

Mercy and I: An update

 Mercy' s litter box issues continue. It is an anxiety problem, from my reading. She is taking Miralax and Metamucil. They assist her in going so she does not become constipated and unable to go...Things are improving bit by little bit.

As for me, I am doing more daily but still tire easily. The outbreak of cyclospora has changed my eating, a pain for someone primarily existing on salads and fruits. A recent broadcast featured a physician telling us, "if you cannot peel it or cook it, do not eat it." I heard this all the time living and travelling abroad.

I've had a bout of food poisoning from pre-cooked, vacuum packed clams from Vietnam courtesy of Amazon Fresh. I'll not be ordering those again.

Happy Saturday. My first ninety day check for cancer recurrence is July 31.

Saturday, June 27, 2026

Living Ground Hog Day

 Mercy came home on Tue after pooping her heart out unbidden at her vet. There has not been a repeat performance here since her return and she is on Miralax per instructions to see if things improve. Should they not. the next step is anti-anxiety medication. I have never seen this behavioral problem in a cat and I feel for her. This is a re-living of the last days all over again. Same non-poop, different day, so to speak.

Your good thoughts are appreciated.


Saturday, June 20, 2026

Mercy back at vet

 After three days of no poop or urination and reduced appetite, Miss Mercy is once again at her vet. At arrival, she produced a soft pile of mush...so much for the constipation theory. I hope the vets can sort this out. 

Time for a nap here...

Friday, June 19, 2026

Mercy is a bit off

 The girl appears not  to be eating much or using her box. She may be  constipated. She'll see the vet on Monday unless a miracle occurs beforehand.

She played a bit prior to bedding down in her stroller for the night.



Wednesday, June 17, 2026

Today

 I did the daily chores and then took solace in a book as the 90 degree heat outside is unbearable. Mercy has been scattering her tiny stuffed mice throughout our home, and expecting me to pick them up. Alas, they are difficult for my grabbers.

As for me, I do still tire easily but I can do most chores and my grocery deliveries are broken into smaller orders more easily handled alone. I do not need a helper at this stage and my friend needed to care for her husband at this point. She has seen me through every appointment and surgery and the first 40 days thereafter. She is a good soul. 

As for my cousin, she has her civic priorities and people to help after an expected knee replacement, something I cannot do. She does not live here and doesn't call often at this point, and she may have had the surgery already. I have left a message pending reply. This type of situation is not uncommon as people age and families shrink.

Though the brachytherapy suggested reduces recurrence of my cancer to about three percent rather than fifteen to twenty, radiation can be hard on the body and I am just not up for it at this time. The every-90-day pelvic exams needed for the foreseeable future are enough, at this point. I am concerned because my surgeon has said nothing more than this and if these exams are basically biopsies, they can be painful. She offers no assistance on the table and nitrous oxide is not provided. Additionally, there are often students in the too small room, making for a nerve wracking experience. The biopsy at my GYN's office prior to diagnosis, though a bit painful, was  seamless because she offered these things and a quiet environment.

Just a few of my thoughts at the moment...






Tuesday, June 16, 2026

Mercy and I

 Both are home. Mercy had urinary problems associated from stress, though she is happy to be back her food and routine have changed a bit. She spends a lot of time curled up next to me.

As for me, tiredness remains though I have resumed most chores. My sole source of help is currently focused on her elderly husband's myriad health needs and surgeries and is no longer available to me. My cousin cruised to the tropics and never visited during my recuperation.

My surgeon recommended vaginal brachytherapy but after discovering the possible complications that neither doctor mentioned. and being told it isn't necessary by the radiation oncologist, I cancelled the appointment and then got sick. I am also experiencing some night perspiration and hot flashes. The stress of an insurance issue did not help.

I take things day by day.  Thank you for your continued interest and support.