Thursday, December 31, 2020

Happy New Year...

I wish all of my readers a healthy 2021. May you be happy, free from harm, and live with the ease of well being.

Monday, December 28, 2020


  A recent comment posted here asked whether I would take the current Covid 19 vaccine. Since the virus is now known to cause neurological changes which I don't need and potentially leave lasting disability in its wake, unless I want to risk catching it, the answer is yes.

Because I am already disabled and neurologically impaired, I really cannot afford to catch anything that could worsen that situation. Additionally, being in a wheelchair most of the time puts me at a disadvantage as does my age because at this point, I would very likely not be a candidate for a ventilator should my lungs and breathing become problematic. With the continuing spread of COVID and hospitals now jammed, doctors are having to decide who would be more likely to benefit from recovery, something I knew and read about from the earliest days of this pandemic. I have also always known that I might get the short end of the stick if doctors were forced into making tough choices because people would not stay home, would not wear masks, would not avoid mixing households for holidays and would not socially distance themselves properly. 

That day has come for too many and watching this all unfold has left me tired, paranoid of any human contact and disgusted by irresponsible behavior, particularly by so-called educated people who want what they want how they want and when they want regardless of the possible consequences to themselves or others because they feel entitled to do whatever they damn well please. 

The new, more virulent strain of COVID and the fact that people can have COVID and be shedding the virus without symptoms means that everyone is a potential vector of disease.

While vaccines offer the prospect of more normalcy and freedom of movement, seventy percent of our population must be  injected before we can begin to live without masks and think of once again enjoying group activities beyond our own households safely. How long that will take to occur is anyone's guess but at the end of the day, I will be vulnerable until then and possibly beyond.

While COVID is in the forefront of the news, it is flu season and I have forgone that vaccine this year because I really cannot take public transport or afford to sit in the car of a friend who has not yet been vaccinated against the COVID virus.

I do not go to shops, I do not go for walks, I do not sit six feet from anyone and share time, food or conversation. I am at home and worried every time groceries or packages arrive now because so many are sick. I live each day connected via the Internet and only that, to the rest of the world. For the most part I am content to be well and do not complain. This is my reality.

Another piece of my reality is that people with disabilities who contract COVID 19 are more likely to die and have a greater risk of dying post-vaccination as well. So, this virus could kill me either way, another reason I'm a bit short on sympathy for the able-bodied who grouse about their perceived lack of freedom.

A friend who works in the public health sector has suggested that masks and other COVID 19 measures may last well into the coming year.

Those of you who are well and more able-bodied but carry on about the abridgement of your lives, your movements, your plans, please focus on the larger picture of staying put and potentially staying well. Stop taking your lives and whatever entitlements you feel are so damned important for granted. 

Monday, December 21, 2020

Merry Christmas and a Healthy New Year

 The last few weeks have been interesting. The city and parts of the county were under a precautionary boil water order for four days which the water department did a poor job of publicizing. I am fortunate to have a friend in the county health department who alerted me. Because I was stocked for both pandemic and hurricanes, I had bottled water, so Lukas and I were fine.

Regarding the shower, it was sparkling in the photo because it was new. While I do keep it clean, the caulk is showing some age and the area below the bench with buckling tiles shows some wear. I've decided to hold off on the repair for now since I can use the hose and stool on the opposite side of the shower or use the kitchen sink as needed. 

Several acquaintances have had COVID since just after Thanksgiving. One  posted their get togethers sans masks and not distancing on social media with a family member exclaiming over their bad luck and asking for prayers. They gathered despite CDC warnings about not mixing households and asking that people remain at home. They even had a non-family member join them,  I just hope they did not infect anyone else. I guess the fact that asymptomatic people can infect others doesn't mean much either. These people are educated and should know better. Does everyone in this country have their heads up their asses? Not the first time I have wondered though I've never done so aloud here before.

As for me, I have done my bit for the holidays, sent e-cards, called those I can and exhaled. Every year gets a bit easier in terms of releasing expectations and simply enjoying every day.  New Years has always been bittersweet since the death of a companion years ago.

Other than an online movie watch party, the coming days will be as usual which is fine by me. I've been climbing the family tree, reading one of four books from my TBR pile and watching various period historical pieces on You Tube or Amazon Prime. The politics and plagues of past generations somehow seem eerily similar but for a few beheadings.

I wish all who celebrate a happy holiday and a healthy 2021!

Thursday, December 3, 2020

Bathroom Blues

Long time  readers may recall that I had an ADA shower built in my bathroom in 2013. Less than a handful of years elapsed before a problem became apparent. For safety reasons, I have a fold down bench attached to the shower wall on one side. One day while cleaning the shower, I noticed tiles around the installation point were beginning to buckle.

I wasted no time in calling the contractor who built the shower, leaving a detailed voicemail for him. When this got no response, I left several more, finally calling another general contractor with ADA experience. When the second guy heard the story, he brought over a form that folks can use as a first step in taking a contractor to court and said, "Show him this."

In the meantime, I had called the plumbing concern associated with my job and had a plumber replace a broken component, which the plumber installed correctly, at no charge to me. The original contractor was then billed and refused to pay the plumbing company, saying that he did not call them. Lawyers got involved and after relating my problem to a vice president at the plumbing company, he called the contractor and chewed him out.

Not long afterward, a very apologetic guy showed up saying he was sorry, he did not get my messages. He looked in the shower, apologizing again and said that he had provided more blocking reinforcement than was actually called for and proceeded to fix everything, or so I thought until recently.

My tile around and below the bench is once more buckling, and because of COVID, I do not want anyone here. The shower has been cleaned as has the bench. I ordered a small shower stool which I can hopefully use on the opposite side of the shower with the hose attachment. I have no desire to go through this again nor deal with the original contractor or any contractor, for that matter.

Wednesday, December 2, 2020


This is what the day looked like at 3 PM...We are definitely in Winter.

Small Pleasures/Cold Day

 Finally, a warm spot! My human is drinking hot soup and I need some sun...

Hoping all is warm and cozy where you are today...